Hello again,
What an interesting last four weeks eh! Today marks the four week anniversary of when it all began. Hard to believe it's only been four weeks. Feels like so much longer...four weeks ago, I knew nothing. Now I stand on the verge of chemotherapy, radiotherapy, daily sickness and tiredness.
As previously stated in earlier blogs, I'm not exactly happy that this has happened to me! But there's no point in sulking about it and wallowing in my bad news. More to the point, two good friends are getting married tomorrow, which is very exciting, and I don't want to draw any attention away from their special day. That would be very selfish and arrogant and I want no part of anything like that!
Furthermore, if you have the temptation to feel sorry for me and become a martyr, then I would rather that you stay away from me. That may sound harsh, but believe me, the last thing I want to do is spend all of my energy trying to cheer up everyone else! I don't feel sorry for myself and I don't expect you to either :)
My life is not over. I'm here for a while yet. Maybe even longer than you! So let's just enjoy our lives together and get over your need to be needed. Don't get me wrong, I need practical help with meals and DVDs and stuff like that, but I would rather you come over and just have fun. If I'm feeling a bit down, just ride it out. It won't last too long!
Consider this your warning ;)
Yeah, the bible tells me that it's good to rejoice with those who rejoice and mourn with those who mourn. In other words, if I'm fine, don't drag me down, just be fine too, please... If that's too hard for you, then you don't have to come over! And if I'm feeling a bit stink, then don't make it worse by ignoring that and telling me to get over it! If that's your attitude, then you can go find some other friends thanks...
Ooh, I like telling people off hehe...
Tomorrow, at the wedding, it is going to be a day of celebration! I am looking forward to enjoying the day with all of my friends. I don't mind if you ask me how I am, don't feel uncomfortable, it's nothing to feel weird about. I am more than happy to talk to you about it, but as long as you remember that tomorrow is all about the two people getting married and you rejoice with them. Because I am getting my haircut and dressing up in my suit and I'm gonna have a great day celebrating with my friends! Lets have a great time together and rejoice with our friends. They are awesome and this is their big day! I hope they love every second!
I have a couple more weddings in the New Year that I plan on going to and having a great time at as well! They will be fun too! I may be bald by then, but I will still do my best to enjoy myself! Bald people are people too. Don't judge me... Lol
So, for those who I will see tomorrow, let's have a great day celebrating together. And for those who I won't see, why don't you do something that you enjoy? Get your bike out and pump up the tyres, and disappear into the forest, or do some baking with the music cranking, or mow the lawns in your shorts, or have a BBQ and get your friends over... The list is endless!!!
See you tomorrow, or Sunday, or just whenever :)
Live your life!
Showing posts with label change. Show all posts
Showing posts with label change. Show all posts
Friday, November 25, 2011
Saturday, July 23, 2011
iChange
I bought an iPad. It is really cool! My old laptop has been pretty temperamental for a while now, so I thought it was time to upgrade. This was a big step for me, coz I have always been slow to take up new technologies. I resisted buying a cellphone when they were first becoming popular... then kept the same phone for several years, while others were upgrading at the slightest whiff of a new model. I remained staunch and mildly cynical. Well, we got by just fine for quite a few years with just an old landline at home, who needs a cellphone!
So my new iPad isn't just an iPad, it represents more than that. I have stepped out from behind my cynical spectacles and have decided to embrace a bit of technology instead of holding stubbornly to my old ways. It represents a change in my attitude, from being stubborn about change, to just giving it a go coz it might just improve my life somehow.
There's always a balance... some people are like Steve Job's lap dogs... dribbling all over his pants whenever he persuades you that his latest product is the saviour of the universe, while others, like I used to be, would see everything new, even sliced bread and colour tv as self-indulgent and unnecessary spawns of evil.
Hang on... my latest talking cat iPad app has downloaded. I really need that. Great!
Meeow to you too, my pixellated friend.
So time will tell how useful new technology really is, or if it is just cluttering up my attention so that I miss the point of why i'm even on this planet. But one thing I know is that 'new' doesn't mean 'bad'. I need to let that small-minded attitude go. Conversely, 'new' doesn't necessarily mean 'better'... I need to guard myself from becoming too materialistic... 'New'just means 'new'!
Meeeow
Ok, here I come, stop bugging me.
So my new iPad isn't just an iPad, it represents more than that. I have stepped out from behind my cynical spectacles and have decided to embrace a bit of technology instead of holding stubbornly to my old ways. It represents a change in my attitude, from being stubborn about change, to just giving it a go coz it might just improve my life somehow.
There's always a balance... some people are like Steve Job's lap dogs... dribbling all over his pants whenever he persuades you that his latest product is the saviour of the universe, while others, like I used to be, would see everything new, even sliced bread and colour tv as self-indulgent and unnecessary spawns of evil.
Hang on... my latest talking cat iPad app has downloaded. I really need that. Great!
Meeow to you too, my pixellated friend.
So time will tell how useful new technology really is, or if it is just cluttering up my attention so that I miss the point of why i'm even on this planet. But one thing I know is that 'new' doesn't mean 'bad'. I need to let that small-minded attitude go. Conversely, 'new' doesn't necessarily mean 'better'... I need to guard myself from becoming too materialistic... 'New'just means 'new'!
Meeeow
Ok, here I come, stop bugging me.
Saturday, January 22, 2011
New Years Revolutions
Well, another year has been and gone, with all the ups and downs that i've come to expect from life. My biggest high of the year was when I bought my first home. I had been working and saving for a number of years, feeling like I would never gather enough money to get a deposit. It was made more difficult with banks requiring higher and higher deposits due to the global financial situation. But, literally overnight, I had put in an offer and had it accepted! It was so exciting!
The place needed a lot of work. So I replaced the carpet, curtains, flooring, splashed a bit of paint around and did some landscaping. The crowing glory has to be my hardwood deck out the back, replacing the wasteland area the had been there for 30 years. Working in the trades has allowed me to get free plants, and cheaper timber etc, which has really helped on a tight budget. I'm really proud of myself, buying and renovating a home all by myself. The next plan is to build a garden shed!
But that's not what I wanted to talk about. My New Years resolution, (or Revolution) as I like to call them, was an original idea. To get fit. Basically, I had had enough of being called fatty, even though it was mostly in a joking way, and decided to do something about it. I joined the gym.
I have a top-class facility only 2mins drive or 7mins cycle from my place. I have been going for three weeks now, at least 4-5 times per week. It's not the first time I have been to a gym. I used to play a lot of competitive sport and have been through at least a dozen memberships over the years. I used most of them ;). So this is nothing new for me in that sense. I guess what feels new is my attitude. I would say that this time I have some real determination and discipline that hasn't always been there. It's encouraging to know that I have grown in this area.
My first discouragement came after two weeks when I weighed myself, only to see that I was EXACTLY the same weight. 10 hard workouts down and I hadn't shed even one fraction of a KG! It was at this point that my trainer said, "You don't just lose weight instantly, you have to do the ground work and build muscle (which actually adds weight) before you start to lose it. He also said that weight isn't too important, your body shape, and how you feel is what's important.
Anyway... I guess what i'm trying to say is this: In the whole area of change, the most important thing is to keep doing the right thing, the results will take care of themselves. Keep focussed on the goal, put in the work and the rest will happen. Don't allow yourself to get discouraged because things don't happen the way you want them to. It's the longer term that's more important.
So keep doing the hard work, even when it feels like there is no evidence of change or growth or anyone else even noticing a thing. Try not to measure your change by readings that the world tells you to, measure your change on your goals and visions for your life. God puts things in our hearts, and how we line up with those is more important than how we line up to other's expectations or standards.
New Year's RESOLUTIONS don't always work, but New Year's REVOLUTIONS means a new way of life,
The place needed a lot of work. So I replaced the carpet, curtains, flooring, splashed a bit of paint around and did some landscaping. The crowing glory has to be my hardwood deck out the back, replacing the wasteland area the had been there for 30 years. Working in the trades has allowed me to get free plants, and cheaper timber etc, which has really helped on a tight budget. I'm really proud of myself, buying and renovating a home all by myself. The next plan is to build a garden shed!
But that's not what I wanted to talk about. My New Years resolution, (or Revolution) as I like to call them, was an original idea. To get fit. Basically, I had had enough of being called fatty, even though it was mostly in a joking way, and decided to do something about it. I joined the gym.
I have a top-class facility only 2mins drive or 7mins cycle from my place. I have been going for three weeks now, at least 4-5 times per week. It's not the first time I have been to a gym. I used to play a lot of competitive sport and have been through at least a dozen memberships over the years. I used most of them ;). So this is nothing new for me in that sense. I guess what feels new is my attitude. I would say that this time I have some real determination and discipline that hasn't always been there. It's encouraging to know that I have grown in this area.
My first discouragement came after two weeks when I weighed myself, only to see that I was EXACTLY the same weight. 10 hard workouts down and I hadn't shed even one fraction of a KG! It was at this point that my trainer said, "You don't just lose weight instantly, you have to do the ground work and build muscle (which actually adds weight) before you start to lose it. He also said that weight isn't too important, your body shape, and how you feel is what's important.
Anyway... I guess what i'm trying to say is this: In the whole area of change, the most important thing is to keep doing the right thing, the results will take care of themselves. Keep focussed on the goal, put in the work and the rest will happen. Don't allow yourself to get discouraged because things don't happen the way you want them to. It's the longer term that's more important.
So keep doing the hard work, even when it feels like there is no evidence of change or growth or anyone else even noticing a thing. Try not to measure your change by readings that the world tells you to, measure your change on your goals and visions for your life. God puts things in our hearts, and how we line up with those is more important than how we line up to other's expectations or standards.
New Year's RESOLUTIONS don't always work, but New Year's REVOLUTIONS means a new way of life,
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